So I was going to do a video for this posting but I changed my mind a minute ago. So I (OFFICIALLY) started my diet early this morning, I took my first diet pill. So i'm on my way & for me this is a big thing. And NOT something that is easy for me to do, espeically since I don't have ANY support here at home. My mom talks so bad about the fact that I've gained some weight since I had my son 3 yrs ago. She calls me fat a** when she gets mad at me. She looks at me & mumbles under her breathe. And laughs at me & she just makes these comments to make me feel bad about myself. As if when I look in the mirror I don't feel bad enough about myself & as if people DONT gain weight sometimes. It's apart of life & she's acting like I'm huge or something like that. When i'm far from that, so what I gained a little bit of weight. So since I DONT have the support here at home, I'm really hoping some of
my readers will help me get through this journey & keep me motivated when I feel like giving up. And if nothing else just knowing that you're listening to me & reading what I'm saying motivates me also!!!!
wow so i’m not excately sure where to start with this posting but i guess i’ll start by saying that twitter is absoutlely CRAZY to and for me. and here is why, for me i seem to have SO many issues with different people on twitter and i know i’m partly to blame for this. i can admit when i’m wrong, not a problem for me at all. but here’s the thing for me i REALLY feel that a lot of people are WAY to sensitive when it comes to certain things on twitter. especially since my twitter is more like a michael jackson kinda twitter, so i’d say that 85-95% of my twitter are other MJ fans, like myself. and me, i’m the type of person who is VERY honest and real about things, EVEN when it comes to michael jackson and how he died. and i guess some or MOST of the other MJ fans on my twitter are so blind by his genius and how great of a person Michael Jackson is. that they refuse to see that REGUARDLESS of all that he was still ONLY human, just like the rest of us humans. and that his blood was RED just like our blood is.
and that REGUARDLESS of all the great things that he did for the world and for entertainment. and REGUARDLESS of how great of a man that he was, that at that the end of the day he WASN’T God and he WASN’T perfect. so when i get on my twitter and start telling it like it REALLY is when it comes or came to him, some of the other MJ fans on my twitter get ALL UPSET that somebody is ACTUALLY smart enough to see things and him for what and who he REALLY WAS. AND NOT WHO I WANT HIM TO BE. so for me this is the MAIN reason why i get into it with people on twitter and why i have such a hard time on twitter also.
and like i said i know that some of it is because of me also. i know that SOMETIMES I can be TO much. but i just feel like i CANT be myslef on twitter. like i HAVE to walk on egg shells with people on twitter. and honestly i’m at the point where i REALLY feel like deleting my twitter all together. but if it WASNT for MY love for Michael Jackson and for the fact that sometimes twitter is like an outlet for me, i would delete it and be done with the whole twitter thing. so i REALLY DONT know what to do when it comes to twitter and how to make it better for myself either…
Hi, this is officially my very first posting and i’m so excited about it, so sense its mother’s day today i figured i do my first posting on my life as a mother. so i have a 3 year old son name Ja’Carion but we all call him nugget or peanut but nuggt is the popular one and the one i’m sure everybody will call him when he gets old enough to go to school. but yes i love him to death, i couldnt see life without him in it & yes that sounds cheesy but its true. so motherhood for me has and still is a tough thing because i’m a single mother & my babydaddy is somewhat of a dead beat father finacially. he wont help me out financially at all but he wants to spend time with my son and get him and stuff like that. but as far as the financial part goes, he simply WONT help me out at all. i havent even seen a total of 1,000 dollars since my son has been born & hes three years old now. and to make it worse my babydaddy is married to somebody else & she has 3 kids of her own from somebody else.
so he takes care of her kids, who arent his but he wont take care of his own blood child. now how meesed up is that & how wrong is it also? so that makes being a single mother harder for me. and on top of that i still live at home with my parents, because i’m still in college working on my second degree right now. so for me until i get done with school i dont want to leave home, nor do i honestly until i’m done with college or married. and neither have happened yet, so until one or both happen, i’ll be home with my parents. but that does make it harder to be a single mother in a lot of ways. but on the flip side always having my parents help does help me out with my son also, so it has its ups & downs.
but other then those few bad things being a mother has been the greatest joy in my life, i wouldnt trade it in for anything, even when my son gets on my last nerves. its still the best thing in all of the world to me, motherhood is the best thing that any mother can ever do in their lives. so its been a joy becoming a mother the past 3 yrs of my life and i’m so excited to see what it has to bring to me the rest of my life. even the good, bad, ugly and pretty sides of being a mother. so motherhood BRING IT ON BABY!! And happy mothers day to ALL the REAL mothers out there!!!